So sorry to hear this my friend. I don't know if you are into this sort of thing but I've been known to study and be obsessed with Shamanism. I'm going to do some healing work for you and send many good shall I say "vibes"/healing energies/prayers your way. Many studies have shown that this type of thing (most call it prayer) does have positive effects if you look it up. I encourage all of you in our little family here to send some positive thoughts and vibes and prayers. Olablane, just know there is atleast one(i'm sure many more) HEART that is out there sending you healing energy and caring about you. It seems that in some of the studies I have read it helps when the patient knows that healing energy is being sent and is receptive to it. So well I guess I'll go by saying I'm here for you for anything I can do and I knowe many others here feel the same. Heck if you(or anyone else) ever just wanna talk about anything just drop me a pm and I'll be extremely open minded regardless of race, religion, creed, beliefs, etc. You could be a space alien for all I care. We are all connected with every living thing in a way, and there is much more for us after this life here. Blessed be all my friends. We are in this together.